2/19/2019

I commit the crimes that cause me to lose every time
I beg to be invited, but fail to be enticed

My routine conversations ache for excitement
I hide in my mind with fake enchantment
My heart beats slow and steady, ready
In anticipation of levitation
Too bad it’s a lost cause invitation

Don’t mind me
Watering and catering to my home grown garden of insecurity
Lyrically, it’s beautifully portrayed
Realistically, it’s an ugly reality

My routine conversations ache for excitement
I hide in my mind with fake enchantment
My heart beats slow and steady, ready
In anticipation of levitation
Too bad it’s a lost cause invitation

I’ll cry out, dry out my eyes
And be sure to use those tears to grow my fears
I’ll be sure to waste away my coming years
I’ll be sure to shy away from possible cures
I’ll be answering your concerns with “I am fine”
While blocking out anything that shines

My routine conversations ache for excitement
I hide in my mind with fake enchantment
My heart beats slow and steady, ready
In anticipation of levitation
Too bad it’s a lost cause invitation

I commit the crimes that cause me to lose every time
I beg to be invited, but fail to be enticed

1/29/2019

Crowded contradictions line up at our lips
We fight for our right to make the first slip
How do we know what we’re saying is right
That our fight isn’t a facade in the name of light
I haven’t even been able to swallow a full bite

Few see past screens anymore
Real life has become a modern chore
Human connection is now nothing but folklore
I roll my eyes harder than most ever swallow their pride
Mistakes will be our future’s guide
Dishonoring any advice we used to abide
How is anyone supposed to choose a side when lies won’t die
The truth used to be ruthless
It’s become toothless

So many are fighting for an invisible crown
My back aches from looking down
It’s my fashion statement to wear a weathered frown

Few see past screens anymore
Real life has become a modern chore
Human connection is now nothing but folklore
I roll my eyes harder than most ever swallow their pride
Mistakes will be our future’s guide
Dishonoring any advice we used to abide
How is anyone supposed to choose a side when lies won’t die
The truth used to be ruthless
It’s become toothless

We’re losing our voices while spitting through our gums
All sides opposer’s ears are going numb
I doubt anyone can cure whats to come
But I know of many who are still trying to overcome

Few see past screens anymore
Real life has become a modern chore
Human connection is now nothing but folklore
I roll my eyes harder than most ever swallow their pride
Mistakes will be our future’s guide
Dishonoring any advice we used to abide
How is anyone supposed to choose a side when lies won’t die
The truth used to be ruthless
It’s become toothless

1/28/2019

My energy is stale and all I want to do is bitch and pout
I’ll never know what everyone else is smiling about
Nothing is real enough
I wish something would stand out

Don’t be sorry and please don’t worry
My mind creates it’s own treasons
I’m sad without reason
I’m sick and silence is usually my top pick
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
Have a face to face heart to heart
I need to do better than my quoted best

Sometimes on drives home
I think there may be an opening
I slam the door shut and forget I was even considering

Don’t be sorry and please don’t worry
My mind creates it’s own treasons
I’m sad without reason
I’m sick and silence is usually my top pick
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
Have a face to face heart to heart
I need to do better than my quoted best

I don’t have enough of a life to make this more specific
Not sure if I could be more pathetic
Probably could, but I want to be dramatic
Does anyone have a camera to make this cinematic

Don’t be sorry and please don’t worry
My mind creates it’s own treasons
I’m sad without reason
I’m sick and silence is usually my top pick
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
Have a face to face heart to heart
I need to do better than my quoted best

1/28/2019

I want to sink my teeth into your specifics
Close the eyes on my inner critics
I could try to control my flashbacks
Try to forget everything they lack
But my eyes get lost on their way to yours
My arms fall to my sides
You don’t understand my inner monologue
But I could try to sum it up

I’m grade A not okay
I know that’s nothing new
There’s more than a few things I could say
But I probably won’t even try
I prefer to cry right by your side
While you’re focused on your cause

I keep my hopeful glimpses on pause
Even though they’re nothing false
I don’t quite believe in them right now
And I’m sure you know the chances are low of me becoming anything more than what I am

I’m grade A not okay
I know that’s nothing new
There’s more than a few things I could say
But I probably won’t even try
I prefer to cry right by your side
While you’re focused on your cause

And maybe this time I’ll seep into you
If my eyes remain on track
Maybe this time my voice won’t crack and I’ll have my own back

I’m grade A not okay
I know that’s nothing new
There’s more than a few things I could say
But I probably won’t even try
I prefer to cry right by your side
While you’re focused on your cause

09/13/2015
Each bruise is worth the money
Even if it’ll leave you lonely
Your future is placed on the back burner, even the present is beside it

You wear bruises like accessories
We all know you didn’t get them from climbing trees-
They know you’ll be waiting on your knees,
Making it easy for any bad boy to please

Dark alleys, assorted cars
Men who’ll go way too far
Lost streets, idling engines
Women who’ll go just too far-

You wear bruises like accessories
We all know you didn’t get them from climbing trees-
They know you’ll be waiting on your knees,
Making it easy for any bad boy to please

The price is your name
They love playing games
Isn’t it a shame
You’ll never be the same-

You wear bruises like accessories
We all know you didn’t get them from climbing trees-
They know you’ll be waiting on your knees,
Making it easy for any bad boy to please

06/25/2015

Telephone wires, five in a row

Birds, perched in their chosen flow

Nature’s sheet music-

Accompanied by mismatched whistles makes the world seem more in tune

02/12/2015

Adulthood is different from a coloring book

Drawing outside the lines may make you pay

They say this isn’t child’s play

I suggest you do it anyway

Forget the lines and color in your hallway

Permanent paint in the road-

Make them wait for it to corrode

Government buildings should be at the top of the list-

Let them know you get the gist

There is no nap time for you to lay

They said this wasn’t child’s play

I suggest you do it anyway

Forget the time and sleep in your hallway

Slumber party in the road-

Make them wait for you to corrode

Government buildings should be at the top of the list-

Let them know you get the gist

Child’s play

Child’s play

Be the adults and don’t see our faults

Child’s play

Child’s play

I suggest you see them anyway

Forget their words and scream in your hallway

Gather them in the road-

Make them wait for your voice to corrode

Government buildings should be at the top of the list-

Let them know you get the gist

02/11/2015

You wrote a list of your mistakes

All in finger printed snowflakes-

All the while you know you love her

She’s an uninformed devoted lover

It’ll melt

She’ll never know what you once wrote

While sitting in a winter coat

She’ll never know how you felt

She’ll only know you somehow broke

You wrote a few of your wishes

While thinking of your last few kisses-

All the while she knows you love her

This time your list is on paper

She’ll never know what you once wrote

While sitting in a winter coat

She’ll never know how you felt

She’ll only know you somehow broke

I’m rarley here

I never listen when you’re near-

I’m disrespectful and late for dinner

She thinks of leaving

The thought is lingering-

I don’t want to hide this anymore

You’re my amour

Look into my eyes please

I want you to take my apologizes

She’ll never know what you once wrote

While sitting in a winter coat

She’ll never know how you felt

She’ll only know you somehow woke

06/26/2014

I don’t think I’ll ever be at peace when my whole sense of self turned out to be this weak

I’ve put a time limit on who I am and I’m trying to escape the expiration date

I can’t tell if it’s for the best or worst when I figured out what I thought saddness was actually my highest

All I’ve ever wanted can only take place in the present

I don’t want a future when I can’t see me in it

I’m packing up characteristics like they’re belongings I’m forcing myself to throw away-

They’re waiting in a corner of my existance and I don’t want to carry them any further

I can’t tell if it’s for the best or worst when I figured out what I thought saddness was actually my highest

All I’ve ever wanted can only take place in the present

I don’t want a future when I can’t see me in it

The factor of time forces too many undecided decisions-

It’s too bad I can’t talk sense into something soulless-

I can’t tell if it’s for the best or worst when I figured out what I thought saddness was actually my highest

All I’ve ever wanted can only take place in the present

I don’t want a future when I can’t see me in it

02/22/2014

The cold is dancing on my skin stirring up goosebumps-

Reckless changing temperature within each square inch

Maybe I’m sick-

If not physically, probably mentally

I pretend my arms are magnets-

I won’t let them separate because they aren’t needed nor wanted anywhere else

All my ideas sound better in my head

I keep most of them to myself so they can’t be ruined-

This is one I chose not to save-

Never mind-

I don’t want to anymore